Join these two in donning smart-person glasses before watching this fascinating Behind The Scenes. Miss Maggie Mayhem and Tina Horn have known each other a long time, both as sex workers and activists. But this is the first time these radical crusading comrades have done a scene together, and the results are nothing short of amazing. It’s good, Maggie tells us, to remember that behind all the art and the activism is an intense passion, and to take the time to indulge in it. For her, making porn is a chance to become a more sexually-whole person. Tina reveals that having orgasms on camera has been tricky for her lately – a block she blew past in this shoot.

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MMM: It feels very unnatural, so it must be right.
Shine Louise Houston, Director: I’m going to run 10 seconds, and then Tristan if you could give us a clap. Bring your hands a little bit lower. Ah I see, that works.
[Laughing]
Crew: I love when you give me the clap.
[Laughing]
TH: Uw, boner killer guys.
[laughing]
MMM: Thanks, right before we start fucking.
TH: That is not my fetish.
[Laughing]
Director: I’m going to get a lighter shot of Maggie. So once again, you do not have to worry about saying the exact same thing.
MMM: Sure.
Director: That’s my problem. Basically if we can do that once again, and you can — your top.
TH: Me? Okay. [laughing]
Director: So let’s hold right there. We’re going to move cameras and you keep going from where you’re at.
TH: Alright was that topping enough for you, Shine?
Director: Thank you!
[Laughing}
Director: Maggie? Mayhem right?
MMM: Maggie.
Crew: Yeah, I thought you were asking Maggie to move.
Director: Oh, no I was asking Tina to move.
MMM: I was like what? And you were like what?
[laughing]
TH: Your guys have what I call contact fuck drunk going on.
[laughing]
TH: This is what happens after I shoot some sex. I’m like, whoa…I need a cigarette. Miss Maggie Mayhem, how did you like the shoot today or what was enjoyable about it?
MMM: This was a really fantastic shoot. I really like the fact that you were a total geyser. It’s great.
TH: [laughs] Were going to just cut to the chase there, okay cool.
MMM: Yeah, if you’re going to ask what I liked about it. I really liked that because it was just so much, and every other time I’ve made someone squirt it’s either not been that much or it’s been with something like a vibrator or something else. Watching that happen was incredible and it was so sexual for me. I wanted to go swimming in it. I kind of did. [laughs]
TH: You kind of went slipping and sliding in it a little bit.
MMM: Yeah. So that was hot. It was especially hot that when you started gushing, obviously my pussy didn’t do it to that extent or we’d all be drowned today, but my cunt started getting wet in response. That started happening and I could start to feel it get juicy and drip around the outside of my pussy. So that was really interesting to see that happen and my body respond to your body in that way.
TH: That’s beautiful
MMM: Kind of like someone having an orgasm can make that rush. Actually the wetness was really cool.
TH: The wetness is infectious.
MMM: Yes, the wetness is infectious.
[laughing]
TH: It’s pretty obvious that I also enjoyed the gushing. I will speak to that more in a moment, but I also wanted to say that it was really great to bang you.
MMM: [whispers: oh my god]
TH: We’ve known each other for a long time.
MMM: Yeah.
TH: In sex work and civilian.
MMM: Civilian and front line activist work.
TH: Yeah, so we have a lot in common and that’s really sexy. Someone that I can have a good conversation with is sexy. Radical crusading comrades are sexy, and you’re definitely somebody that I admire a lot. At the same time; sometimes when you do sex work, sex activism, sex writing, and film making, it’s really nice to remember at the core of it is a passion about passionate sex. One of the things I love the most about sex is how it takes me out of intellect and certain kinds of responsibility and that I can be in my body and be primal and animalistic. I also know what that side of you is like, so I knew you would bring it out of me and you did. It was fucking fantastic. [laughs] Go ahead slap me. Yes, slap me with my cum.
MMM: Oh fuck! Please yes. Jesus. Fuck!
Crew: I’m out of tape.
Director: So actually that’s an amazing place to end. It’s been an hour.
Both: Really?!
Director: Yes. I know!
MMM: Fuck, fuck!
Director: That one was about to shut off, and I maybe have a minute left on my tape. That was epic.
MMM: Fuck!
TH: Yes!
[laughing]
TH: I knew I had it in me. Do you get it? It’s supposed to be a joke. The cum is in me. Yes!
MMM: Yes! That is such a good —!
Crew: Let me see. Whoa!
Director: That’s awesome, that’s so awesome.
MMM: I could not believe how much that was. [gasps] It’s so hot!
TH: It’s been happening lately sometimes, when I’m really turned on.
MMM: Fuck! It’s so funny, once I got my thumb in I couldn’t reach your G spot.
TH: It gets to a certain point where I become much less high maintenance. It passes this threshold then I’m not high maintenance anymore. You weren’t even touching, you were just rubbing your fucking ass in my belly and I was squirting.
MMM: It was hot.
Director: That was amazing
MMM: I just wanted to cover myself in cum. I want it on my ass, I want it on my belly.
TH: That was really awesome.
MMM: You’re so fucking hot!
TH: You’re so fucking hot! Mmmmm.
[laughing]
TH: I love the Crash Pad!
MMM: What did you find challenging about the shoot today Tina?
TH: Well you know, it wasn’t actually challenging today. In general, having orgasms on camera has become really tricky for me. It’s like a psyche out thing, you know? I start thinking about it and then I lose my boner and I can’t get it up. The irony is like, what an attention whore I am. When it comes down to the orgasms, not this crucial part of sex but this integral part of sex, that’s one place where I’m like don’t look at me and don’t make me the center of attention. It’s been hard for me, and I’ve been struggling with it to be perfectly honest. But I’ve been squirting lately. My brain is like [motions in circles]. I’ve been squirting lately when I masturbate and when certain people go down on me. Not always, and it’s sort of illucive. I really love it, I really love squirting. It makes me feel like a champion. It feels really fucking good. Squirting is also connected to multiple orgasms for me, where I have internal muscular spasmy orgasms. I can have a million of them and then a sort of meta clitoral orgasm. Sort of like the summit and then refractory period. Anyway..[laughs]
MMM: You know, I follow you on that because you know I map orgasms.
TH: Yes, that’s true. Speaking of trust, there is just something about your enthusiasm, intelligence, humor, and sassiness that really turned me on and made me feel comfortable. This environment makes me feel really empowered and comfortable. I think that’s where all that loving came from. What was challenging for you?
MMM: Actually, when I cum I tend to get muscle tension that is no joke. I kind of go like a board which is really funny. I only know this because people tell me or I have side effects. It’s kind of like the wind — I gone completely tense because other things happen like the leaves shake. The most challenging for me was for some reason it’ll usually be my legs that can potentially cramp; I don’t know why, but when I came my arm did this insane Charlie horse thing from when I was tensing so much.
TH: Ohh!
MMM: I was like “Ahh”. Then I told myself ok, we’re just going to let the loving get back into the muscle tissue.
TH: I didn’t even notice that that happened.
MMM: I just let it go because I don’t want to stop. I’ll just use my other hand. [laughs]
TH: That was a really hot orgasm.
MMM: Oh my god. It was all the tension. I can still feel where it was stiff. I kind of like that it happens because when you think of orgasms being in your genitals, and I think orgasms are the body and sex is the body. Human beings don’t have bodies, human beings ARE bodies. The mind is the body.
TH: Right.
MMM: To cum and to feel it throughout the entirety of my body, literally from my head to my toes and apparently even my triceps is really cool. It’s a challenge because you’re dealing with something completely unexpected.
TH: Yeah.
MMM: It was a challenge, but it was really positive to have my whole body cum that much.
TH: Yeah, I’ll say.
MMM: You know without stretching or doing anything crazy, that that can happen. So it was both.
TH: Cool.
MMM: Ohh, oh yeah. God.
TH: Mmmhmm.
MMM: [moaning] oh my god.
TH: Is that too deep inside you?
MMM: No. [moaning]
TH: Mmmhmm.
MMM: [moaning]
TH: You look so fucking hot impaled on my peck, jerking yourself off. Mmmhmm.
MMM: [moaning]
TH: You don’t have anywhere to be?
MMM: No, on your dick.
[laughing]
TH: That’s right. Ah, yeah fuck! Fuck!
MMM: [MOANING}
TH: You want more? Beg me.
MMM: Oh yeah. Oh please give me more of that dick. Oh please, oh please. I’m going to cum like a slut over and over for you on that big dick.
TH: I’m not convinced yet.
MMM: Please let me lick the pussy off your dick so you can fuck it again.
TH: That’s amazing, you read my mind! That’s amazing Maggie! Get that pussy in your mouth.
TH: What keeps you coming back to porn, Maggie?
MMM: I keep learning about my sexuality more and more every single time I make porn. Early when I first started having sex, I didn’t think about it. I just let sex happen to me. When I started making porn, I realized you don’t just let sex happen to you. You have this great process of participatory consent and negotiation. You start to really think about all the nuances of your sexuality. It also made me more creative in many ways. I know if I’m just at home jerking off sometimes, I’m not very creative. I go for efficiency. I touch myself, I know what’s going to work. Doing porn I kind of break out of the box. I think about what is the erotic potential of anything and everything in my context. It’s really fun to sit there and make sex an erotic art. You’re using your body, but you’re also looking around and saying is there an erotic side to any of these objects? Is there an erotic side to this emotion? It’s branched out, and it’s made me feel like a more whole sexual person. That’s why I keep coming back. I feel like every time I do that, I’m more confident in what I like and more confident in myself and my body. That’s what keeps me coming back more and more every time I do it. How about you?
TH: Fuck yeah. It’s so hard to top the beautiful poetic art to the things that you say. What do I love about porn? So much. I’ve been behind the camera and behind the scenes being a pornographer and filmmaker more in the past year than in my whole sex work career. It’s really refreshing to be able to get in front of the camera for other people’s projects and contribute to other people’s visions that are part of my community and continue to learn from them. Like I was saying when we had our wonderful negotiation this morning, I feel like being a really dramatic theater faggot and somebody who genuinely get off on role plays. I know that all of the times I’ve done porn, I construct this really elaborate scenario, character, or dynamic. That’s really awesome, and is a natural expression of my sexuality. But I kind of realized recently that I hide behind it a little bit. I really wanted to put my money where my mouth is in terms of asking all these people to be sexually honest for my projects. I just really want to have hot sex and fuck. Not spending 25 minutes constructing and ad libbing this dialogue. I just wanted to experience your body and my body and get into it. I think that it was a successful experiment.
MMM: Yeah, I think it was. I think porn is one of the few places where we have a record of the infinite diversity of the human experience. It’s funny because now I’m starting to move towards making porn as a pornographer, not just a performer. It’s funny how all these things contribute. Thank you for contributing to my sexuality, because you’ve been contributing for so long by going out there and doing things. I mentioned earlier that I’m so happy to be here at Crash Pad because for so long I’ve been like, “yes!” This is something that I’m so into, that I think is so vital for everybody. I think it was very successful. Sometimes if you want to fuck, we don’t have to do it on camera. We totally can.
TH: [gasps]
MMM: I would love to get together and take it offline. [laughs]
TH: Cool.
[laughing]
TH: Do you have anything else?
MMM: Are you blushing?
TH: I don’t know.
MMM: I think it’s something you said to me earlier, “I don’t think I’ve ever seen you look that shy”.
[Laughing]
TH: Is there anything else you want to tell the nice people at home?
[laughing]
MMM: There’s a million things that I want to say, and there’s a million things that I had to say. I guess right now the most important thing to say is that I hope people have as much fun as I do. I hope that it inspires people to go off and go do something fucking crazy.
TH: Yeah.
MMM: Or crazy fucking, whichever way you like it.
TH: I think I want to say that I’ve kind of had the blues lately and felt self consciousness surrounding sex, attraction, and relationships. It is really empowering to orient yourself in a way to figure out how to get what you want. I feel like everything is wiped clean. Great sex can do that. Great solo sex can do that.
MMM: Mind quakes.
TH: Yeah. I used to be self conscious that I couldn’t squirt or have crazy orgasms on camera like I did today. People should just believe in themselves, and they can soak the bed.
[laughing]
MMM: Love yourself! Loving yourself is the key to pornography.
TH: Now I’m just trying to crack up the crew. I’m just going to keep talking until they tell me to shut up and put a sandwich in my mouth.
[laughing]
TH: Thanks Maggie
MMM: Thank you!