M:  So Trouble, how did you like the shoot today?
CT: I loved the shoot today. Working with you is very exciting. You’re so attractive to me and so smart, kinky and interesting. Any chance I get to put my hands on you is worth it
M: Oh, thanks
[Laughing]
CT: How did you like the shoot today?
M: I loved it. I think shooting with you is always such a good time, we have fun, we laugh, we cum like 17 times. It’s awesome. Working with is fantastic. You’re a queer porn icon. I love it, it’s really hot to fuck you and think about that
CT: So basically you’re star fucking me?
M: Totally star fucking you. Yes on record.
[Laughing]
CT: That’s funny because I’m star fucking you
M: Cool. No you’re pretty, no you’re pretty
[Laughing]
M: Its fun to fuck another femme girl.
CT: Yeah
M: It doesn’t always happen like that in real life. I know we talked about that before
CT: Yeah
M: And I think we both really just get into that. Want to see two femmes fuck? This is how we fuck. It’s not all dainty and nice. It’s real messy and wet. [Laughs]
CT: [Moaning]
M: Yeah! Oh yes! Oh my god!
Director: When you took off the glove, I totally got splattered.
CT: Is that the first time that’s ever happened?
Director: Yeah
CT: From way over there?
Director: I was over here, and you were over there.
[Laughing]
CT: Its either baby spit up or girl jazz.
Director: Yeah, yeah. No seriously that’s the first time I’ve ever been hit.
CT: Wow. I can’t even tell you how many times I’ve been hit. Because I do handheld, I’ll get up in there and let them squirt on my camera
[Laughing]
CT: I like that our scene today was really free form. We didn’t plan out what we were going to do. We didn’t have a storyline. We didn’t say we were going to use this toy, this toy, and this toy. We had none of that planned out. We really just got to make out, fool around, and fuck because we wanted to.
M: Yeah
CT: It didn’t feel like a job. I totally forgot the cameras were there.
M: Yeah. I got to try a couple new things that I’ve never done before with different toys.
CT: You’re good with a cock. Amazing. You really know how to fuck
M: I love fucking other people
CT: Did you find anything challenging?
M: What was challenging? Not really difficult, but I don’t really do much BDSM stuff like being tied up or hitting with the leather straps. So it’s kind of good to push my boundaries a little bit with that. That was a good challenge.
CT: I get it done to me a lot, but I don’t really do that a lot to other people. Thank you for the opportunity for letting me kick your ass a little bit.
M: It’s good to practice new skills and it’s different sensations. I really like that and try to incorporate it more.
M: I can be flogged. I can be slapped anywhere else like across the face, but spanking hurts.
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M: Ok, I’ll be waiting right here.
[Smacking]
M: [groaning] [Yeah]
CT: I just found it really challenging to stop. I felt like that sex session could have lasted 4 hours and I would have been still going.
[Laughing]
CT: Then I thought its porn, the tape is going to end, need to wrap it up. I started thinking it was just my sex life. I get to do this all the time, right?
M: Were just having some video cameras around.
[Laughing]
[Heavy breathing] [Laughing]
CT: Could we have more time?
[Laughing]
CT: Do we have to pay for another hour if we want it?
Director: What were you thinking?
CT: How are you feeling? I could be done. I definitely cant get fucked again.
M: Ok. We do our best work when we try that one, for just 5 more minutes.
CT: Yeah, can I fuck you for 5 more minutes?
M: Mmhmm
CT: Cool, awesome.
M: [Moaning]
CT: Mmm fuck
M: Oh my god. Oohh.
CT: So why do you do porn?
M: I do porn because…I started out as a photographer and an artist. I always used myself, and took pictures about my life and about my sexuality. This kind of rolled out of that, but it didn’t really happen until I met the San Francisco porn community.
CT: I can totally relate to that. I’m a photographer and an artist too. I was in Olympia and it was a different community, but it totally morphed into porn from taking pictures of my life
M: Yeah. I always thought I’d liked to do that. I’m an exhibitionist. I like doing stuff in front of other people. I like the idea of other people watching. I definitely get off on doing it, having it be filmed, and the idea of where it goes. I love all of that. But, I never really thought that I would…I just didn’t know about this type of porn community until I met it in San Francisco. I keep doing it because I like it and love all the people I work with. I think the porn community here is so amazing. I just love how smart, political, sexy, creative, and just how fucking nice they are. It’s just really cool
CT: I think we’re here in a really special time. Or maybe this special time will just last forever. This is just what porn is now. I totally feel different. When I started doing it, I just wanted to see people like me in porn. If I feel this way, then other people want to jerk off to people like themselves too. So maybe I can make porn where there are lots of different kinds of people and everyone can find a piece of themselves in it. Make it so that sexy isn’t just a standard thing. That’s definitely why I started performing. You know I’m short, fat, queer, femme, covered in tattoos, and kind of nerdy. That should be in porn. I should be in porn. I’m going to do it.
M: Fuck yeah. [Laughs]
CT: Nobody else is going to do it. I’m going to do it for them. While I’m definitely not that political and head strong/chip on my shoulder anymore, I used to be. Especially Crash Pad, which is knocking out scene after scene with amazing diversity and body sizes, sort of nerd level and tattoo freaky level. I don’t really feel that heartbreaking desire to see myself in porn anymore because I do. I see myself in it.
M: Yeah, its happening.
CT: I see other girls like me and boys like me. It’s so amazing to grow up as a performer and see what I started for, sort of really take place. I just keep doing it now more as a celebration. Yay, it’s happening! Diversity is super hot and I totally belong here.
M: It’s not such a priority anymore which is good because that means what you started has rippled and taken momentum.
CT: Yeah, for sure.
M: That’s very cool. I also think doing porn has definitely helped me personally with my sexuality and pushing boundaries in who I want to have sex with, what I want to have sex with, what I find erotic and sexy, and what turns me on. I have this fantasy, and I don’t have to wait around for it to happen to me. I’m making it happen for myself. I want to do this; I’m going to do this.
CT: Totally. You really proved that. What is so impressing to me about you is you shot your first porn as a solo scene.
M: You were the videographer. [Laughs]
CT: Yeah, that’s where the crush was born.
[Laughing]
CT: –Then you busted out with your own super artistic, super well put together short film which you’re making into a full one.
M: Right.
CT: You just bust out of the park and started bolting down the street making porn. It’s really awesome to perform with somebody who is just as much impassioned about making porn.
M: Yeah. It’s different now that I’ve done both sides, performing and making your own. It’s cool to perform with someone else who makes their own porn too. It’s a more holistic way of looking at it like where it going to go. It’s cool.
CT: Yeah.
M: Always a pleasure to shoot with you.
[Muah]
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