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(Intro music)
Little Spittle: So what did you enjoy about the shoot today?
Pixi Lust: Fisting you. No, I enjoyed, honestly, just hanging around. You know. With you, specifically. It was really nice.
Spittle: I agree. On both parts.
Pixi: Just looking into your eyes was like… “Ooh, this is cool.” (Laughs)
Spittle: Yeah it was really good.
Pixi: (whispers) Pure intimacy.
Spittle: We had a good energy exchange going on.
Pixi: Oh yeah.
Spittle: It felt good.
Pixi: Yeah. I did feel like – I was like (whispers) Oh shit. I don’t know. Started to get emotional. (Laughs) How about you?
Spittle: I also enjoyed the fisting. That is always a favorite of mine. And I feel like this is the most connective shoot that we’ve had together so far and it felt really good to connect with you
Pixi: Yeah, no same! I’ve been wanting to hang out with you again anyway, too.
Spittle: I could feel how fluttery you felt when I made eye contact with you So I was like
Pixi: Well you, too! That’s why I was like “Look into my eyes…”
Spittle: Yeah, my soul into your’s!
Pixi: It’s like a staring contest.
(Laughs)
Pixi: What if anything was challenging about the shoot?
Spittle: I… didn’t find anything super challenging today. I thought… because last time I felt like…I was a little nervous about how we were going to connect initially but it wasn’t challenging at all. Yeah.
Pixi: The last time, or this time?
Spittle: This time.
Pixi: Oh, okay.
Pixi: Last time definitely was?
Spittle: – Mmhm
Pixi: I think, for me. Oh – (clicks tongue) What was challenging? Oh god, being timely. (laughs) Getting here and also I feel like I needed a watch I didn’t want to go over.
Spittle: On the hand you weren’t fisting me with
Pixi: Yeah, exactly. So I don’t lose it. Yeah, I was like “Damn, I don’t want to stop, this is cool.”
Spittle: Yeah.
Pixi: Cuz you were like “Thank you Babe” and I was like, “What do you mean ‘Thank you’ – Do you want more?”
(laughs)
Pixi: Cuz I had energy also I could just switch hands too, alternate.
Spittle: I’ve got two hands!
Pixi: That’s why we have two!
Spittle: I can move the watch. (laughs)
Pixi: Yeah, and like… I think that was probably the most challenging. Which is a really good sign. Because there’s really nothing else. It feels pretty chill. The other challenging thing is this hole in my wardrobe. Yeah, that’s it. That’s it for me.
Spittle: What are your safer sex practices, and why?
Pixi: Making sure I’m tested and the people I’m having sex with are tested. I feel like it’s pretty –
Spittle: – pretty standard. Agree.
Pixi: I’m also taking PrEP, too.
Spittle: I’m also on PrEP and make sure that I stay on top of testing. That’s definitely – Varying kinds of interactions or depending on who I’m interacting with might have a little bit more leeway on when their tests can be. Especially other people in the industry.
Pixi: I also feel like a lot of the people that I have sex with even if they’re not in the industry they are people that I have good communication with so they wouldn’t be ones that if they were to test positive for something like I know it would tell me.
Spittle: Right. Communication. Safer sex practices.
Pixi: Yeah!
Spittle: Communicating!
Pixi: That’s all it comes down to.
Pixi: If you’ve done porn before, why do you continue to do it?
Spittle: I have done porn before. I’ve been doing porn for quite some time. I think initially I started doing porn because I was nervous about having people in my space and it was a way to like,
Pixi: – have sex
Spittle: – break down my walls and allow people into my space in the most intimate and vulnerable way that I could think of
Pixi: Cool. So you’re talking about emotional space?
Spittle: Emotional space, yeah. Building trust. And building connections with people. I also think I really struggled connecting with people right off the bat from a – a fucked up childhood. I really struggled with knowing how to interact with people and I found that sex, porn, was a way that I could do that and I like to keep my porn realistic, like today.
Pixi: Oh, yeah.
Spittle: Because it shows people that sex happens in so many different ways,
Pixi: Right. It’s not like you’re just acting. Or you’d be the best actor that I’ve ever worked with.
(laughs)
Pixi: I do porn cuz I’m a slut. I’m just like, “Oh! Cool.” I’m good at being a slut I guess!
Little Spittle: You’re really good at it.
Pixi: Thanks. I feel…I don’t know… I feel very exhilarated being on a porn set. It’s my favorite. It’s going to be a good day, meeting new people and stuff. And even though we already knew each other, I was excited to connect more. You know what I mean?
Spittle: Yeah!
Pixi: It’s really, I don’t know, it feels kind of bizarre looking through the lens of a non sex worker. Like if you were to just hop into this situation where we’re going to work together.
Spittle: You two have never met. Go at it!
Pixi: It’s like being intimate on command. Luckily it works.
Pixi: It’s worked for me. With us, I think. What was the question again?
(Laughs)
(Ava, off camera) I think you’ve answered it.
Spittle: You did great, yeah!
Pixi: Okay! I feel like I had more, I just forgot.
Spittle: What was your favorite thing about quarantine?
Pixi: This is going to sound fucked up, having an excuse to be depressed. If I’m like, “Ah, shit. I can’t go outside.” I can say it’s ‘cause of quarantine.
Spittle: At least it was a communal experience.
Pixi: Yeah, I could be like, “Sorry guys, I can’t make it.” Or something like that. It was socially acceptable to be a hermit.
Spittle: I honestly feel the same.
Pixi: – which is fucked up
Spittle: I feel like doing porn and having the personas that we have to exist online, everyone sees us as these really lively, going out all the time kind of thing… So quarantine was the excuse I needed to sit back and recharge.
Pixi: Yeah.
Spittle: Without having to make excuses. Just be like, nope, COVID.
Pixi: Yeah,I actually started,I started porn when the quarantine started, it’s kind of weird, the weirdest time to start, but it actually worked out. It was terrible timing on my part.
Spittle: But now look at you!
(Ava) Anything else you’d like to mention or say to the people?
Pixi: Oh, you know what? That was my first time having a whole fist in somebody.
Spittle: Really? Yeah, you kept saying “Oh Wow!”
(Laughs)
Pixi: Yeah. You took my fist virginity.
Spittle: I’ve been known to do that a time or two. Put it all in there!
Pixi: Ooh, are you okay!? Oh god!
Spittle: No, you did great!
Pixi: Cool.
Spittle: Thank you.
Pixi: I was just impressed as I goddamn like, the human body is amazing. This is wild. Good job!
Spittle: Can I kiss you?
Pixi: Yeah!