Transcription: @julianamarie

[2257 disclaimer, filming scene]
(Cicatriz is on all fours on bed, El Dorado is behind)
Cicatriz: Mm, mm, Can we break for a second?
(Voice off-camera (VOC)): Well, yeah, yeah.
(Cicatriz moves right)
Cicatriz: My lash is falling off
(Laughter)
Cicatriz: (Sits up on knees) And it’s totally distracting me
(Laughter)
Cicatriz: Ah, that’s so sad…
[Cut to interview]
El Dorado: So how did you like the shoot today?
Cicatriz: I thought it was great.
El Dorado: Yeah?
Cicatriz: Yeah. I was really nervous, and then once we started fucking, it was kind of all systems go, as it usually is.
El Dorado: Yeah.
Cicatriz: Yeah, and it was really good, it was really hot, it was really hot watching you fuck me, and…
El Dorado: I love fucking you.
Cicatriz: Mm-hmm, yeah, me too. I quite enjoy it. What did you like about it?
El Dorado: Um…, I… I, how do you, how do you, como se dice, a not voyeur, exhibitionist.
Cicatriz: Exhibitionist, yes.
El Dorado: Yeah, I just, yup-
Cicatriz: (Clears throat)
El Dorado: I think I’m a, I think I’m a bit of an exhibitionist.
Cicatriz: Mm-hmm.
El Dorado: And hm, that side of me, um, I don’t think I’ve had too much of a chance to practice
Cicatriz: Mm-hmm
El Dorado: that because you know, because I’m trans.
Cicatriz: Mm-hmm.
El Dorado: And it’s, it’s always been tied into safety issues for me.
Cicatriz: Uh huh.
El Dorado: So it’s uh, it’s very kind of amazing experience to do that and have it be a safe thing, you know, like a relax, chill-
Cicatriz: Yeah.
El Dorado: Safe, hot thing, so I, that’s what I like.
Cicatriz: Yeah.
El Dorado: (unintelligible).
Cicatriz: I feel similarly, I feel like, I, I think I do have a bit of an exhibitionist streak, but it’s rare to like, feel safe enough to actually like act out on that, and this is, this was a nice opportunity to do so.
El Dorado: Yeah.
Cicatriz: Mm-hmm.
[cut to scene]
(Close-up on Cicatriz, facing on top of El Dorado, then cuts to El Dorado behind Cicatriz, who is on all fours)
(Unintelligible)
El Dorado: We, we start off at the same place (unintelligible)
(VOC): You guys are pretty much in the same position, so don’t worry about it too much.
El Dorado: Okay
[Jumps to what looks like Cicatriz on her back, El Dorado on top]
Cicatriz: (unintelligible)
El Dorado: A day in the life
(Laughter)
[Back to interview]
Cicatriz: What was challenging for you? If anything, today?
El Dorado: Um the only thing that was challenging to me is um…, yeah, I guess, time wise, I guess I’m used to squeezing in a lot more variety. Um… I really wanted to fuck you with the glass toy.
Cicatriz: Mm-hmm (laughs)
El Dorado: But you know, that’s, that would have been a whole ‘nother
Cicatriz: Mm-hmm, I actually thought that’s what was coming next, I was like-
El Dorado: Yeah, you know, well, you know, usually, yeah, but the time constraint, I think the time constraint, um, and that’s it, I, I don’t know, I guess a little nervousness beforehand but, and you know, yeah, in general, I, I felt very at ease with everybody here, so that, that wasn’t an issue, as soon as we walked in the door, you know.
Cicatriz: Awesome.
El Dorado: Yeah. How ‘bout for you?
Cicatriz: Um, I think the time constraint also, ‘cause we usually like fuck for hours, so.
El Dorado: Yeah.
Cicatriz: But, um, so yeah, I felt like, felt I had all these things in my mind that I wanted us to do but it’s all good. I think we did well. And then I initially was a little, like concerned of whether I’d like really be able to come or not, being filmed
El Dorado: Yeah-
Cicatriz: -and like having other people in the room and, and like it being like in a different setting that I’m not used but, no problem there, apparently (laughs)
El Dorado: (laughs) No, yeah –
Cicatriz: So
El Dorado: Yeah um, that was –
Cicatriz: It was good, actually, I didn’t feel too challenged at all.
El Dorado: No.
Cicatriz: No.
El Dorado: Me neither.
[cut to film, El Dorado on top, fucking Cicatriz]
(Panting and sounds of ecstasy)
(They kiss)
(Unintelligible)
Cicatriz: Oh…
(Panting, sounds like they begin to recover)
(VOC): Okay, I have – okay
(Laughter, unintelligible)
[Back to interview]
Cicatriz: Um, I have done solo stuff before, mostly in like the hetero porn realm, just because like I have huge tits and there’s a market for that, and I’ve totally, like, used that to my advantage. I’ve never felt safe, like I never even considered like fucking somebody on screen in that context, just because that’s not really who I am, and even though it’s like, you know, even though it’s a like a gig, it’s still too, too personal and too, like close to home to, to do that and have it documented, like, I don’t know, it just seems weird but, um, I guess I just never really felt safe, and I never was really ever really that hot about it because it’s just pretty, you know typically straight, misogynist, etcetera, etcetera.
El Dorado: Mm-hmm.
Cicatriz: I think the exhibitionist thing definitely plays into it. I like that it’s a pretty empowering act for me to like have overcome so many, like, adversities in terms of like body image issue, like, being a brown woman, like, all of these things that traditionally are not part of like the erotica schema, I would say, in mainstream anyway. And um, and it’s really hot. So.
El Dorado: Yeah. Um (clears throat) yeah, for me, yeah, similarly, um… I, I’ve never done porn before, and I’ve never been out as transgender before. And I feel like I’m in a place where I have for the first time in my life, I really, I wanted to choose, um, like you know, queers or brown people.
Cicatriz: Yeah.
El Dorado: There’s queer brown people around (laughs)
Cicatriz: Yeah.
El Dorado: And we got like a, yeah, we got a strong community, and it’s just like getting bigger, and we’re, you know, you know, more empowered and, and our voices are, I feel like, a lot more heard than they’ve ever been. Um, and yeah, I, I’d never… I always thought I’d had opportunities to be involved in some queer porn before, but I, you know, I always felt like the only person of color there, the only Latino, and I’ve, you know, I wouldn’t do straight porn, you know (laughs)-
Cicatriz: Yeah.
El Dorado: And you know, it doesn’t feel like that right now, it feels like, you know, like an awesome opportunity to represent and, and like there’s, yeah, there’s a lot of us-
Cicatriz: Mm-hmm.
El Dorado: And you know, we’re fucking hot-
Cicatriz: Mm-hmm-
El Dorado: And shit, you know um, and I, I would continue to do it, you know.
Cicatriz: Mm-hmm.
El Dorado: You know, I feel good about it.
Cicatriz: It definitely feels like a rise of momentum.
El Dorado: Oh yeah.
Cicatriz: You know?
El Dorado: Yeah, oh yeah, hell yeah! Fucking shit up, yeah.
Cicatriz: I’m just extremely stoked to have such a great experience, first time experience.
El Dorado: Yeah.
Cicatriz: Doing, doing porn with (unintelligible) and I’m really like… like very joyful that it’s with somebody that I really love and have such an intense connection with. And that that made it like, that much hotter for me.
El Dorado: Yeah, and yeah, along the same lines, it’s, I definitely have, you know, I feel like there’s definitely a solidarity and, yeah, I also, yeah I want to say that it’s, it’s really awesome to feel the presence of like queer POC, you know and… it’s a, it’s a big presence and there’s a lot of us, and you know, I just hope to see more queer POC in queer porn. Yeah.
(Off camera) Cool. Thanks, you guys.
El Dorado: Yeah
(OC) It was awesome
Cicatriz: Thank you.
(OC) We’re inspired, hey
(Laughter, fades out)
[2257 disclaimer]